Thursday, February 21, 2013

Taking care of Sarah

For the past two years I have led a healthier lifestyle than I had for most of my adult life.  I followed Tosca Reno's Eat Clean Diet completely for the first 6 months.  Through the diet and exercise, I lost 40 pounds.  After that first 6 months, I was not as strict with the diet, but I have maintained that weight for two years now.

That part is good.  However, for the past 6 months I have not been as regular with my exercise. I'll start running, and do well for 4 or 5 days, or maybe up to a couple of weeks, but then I fall out of it again.  I tell myself that I have too much to do, or I am too tired at night to fit in a run, or whatever.  Excuses.  I seem to do better when I don't allow myself to miss even one day, because once I do, it turns into a week.

That same idea holds true for my diet too.  When I follow the diet completely, I don't crave sweets and salty food.  I feel good about staying true to it, and that encourages me to continue.  As soon as I say to myself that a couple of cookies or one dessert at a party won't make that much of a difference, I want more.  Even just a little makes me feel guilty, especially if I don't stop at just two cookies.

I have gotten a little lazy with making my meals, relying too much on frozen vegetables, and not enough fresh.  I don't make enough variety.  I am kind of bored.

So I have been processing all of this lately, and thinking of how easily I could fall out of this healthy lifestyle.  While so far my small exceptions to my diet and lack of consistent exercise has not made a huge difference, I worry that little exceptions could turn into big or regular exceptions.  I don't feel as good as I think I could.  I don't feel as good as I have earlier in this journey.  I am not as proud of myself.  I don't feel as confident.  I am also more anxious and tend to get more down about things.  While that is kind of a natural part of my personality, I know that diet and exercise can help with stress.  So, what I am trying to say is that there is probably some correlation there.

The scale still reads the same.  I always fall in the same range of 4 pounds. So that's good.

And I am healthy.  My sister suggested that I schedule all of my doctor appointments for one month of the year.  I like that advice because it is making me get it all done, and I have not always been so good about regular health care in the past.  So February is my month.  So far I have had 2 appointments, and only have my dermatologist appointment left.  (I have to have my skin checked for skin cancer once a year.)  My regular doctor's appointment went very well.  I hadn't seen him since I lost the weight, and he said I was like a totally different person. 

I was glad to hear that what I am doing has made a difference, but I still don't feel one hundred percent.  (Interestingly enough, all of this could possibly correlate with my lack of consistency on my blog too.)

So, anyways, tomorrow is a new day.  I am recommitting myself to eating completely clean.  (I am actually going to re-read Tosca's book.) I am going to run.  And I am going to be consistent.  I am starting at a pretty good place, but want to take myself back to when I felt my best.

(As a side note, I am also scheduling a hair appointment, and am trying a new skin care line.  I got some new glasses, and am trying to wear my contacts again.  I am hoping this makes me feel better too.)

I hope that I don't sound too self-absorbed in this post...I just want to feel good, and strong, and energetic and confident, and know that feeling that way makes me a better wife and mother too. 

1 comment:

Joy Brown said...

Not at all! YOU Need to take care of YOU and feel good about yourself or else you can't be the best version of yourself for your people! The old saying is true, if mom isn't happy, no one is happy! It all filters down :) I have faith in you that you will get back on track, but if you slip up, don't be too hard on yourself (Believe me. Hi Pot, I'm kettle ;) ) I need to get back at it too, starting Monday (I'm giving myself time to prepare/dread lol and to shop for good foods to stock my shelves)

Good luck! :)